Saturday, June 18, 2011

Time Limit

I wonder what life will be like without a time limit. My whole married life there has been a time limit. 12 days after we were married Kenny deployed, then R n R, we got 2 weeks. When he returned from that deployment we knew it was just a matter of time before he was deployed again. Let me tell you it is the worst feeling always having the thought of a deployment looming in the back of your mind. It is hard to live life every day knowing that eventually your husband will have to leave again. So when the second deployment came we were back to our time limit. This time he was sent to California first. So our time limits were more brief, 3 or 4 day passes here or there. It's hard to live your life knowing your husband is deploying, while he is in another state and there is nothing you can do. Wasted time. That is what it feels like. During this deployment we were back to the 2 week R n R and now finally our time limit will end. We are in the single digits and then we will never have to have a time limit again. I won't have to live with a looming deployment. I won't have to latch on to my husband afraid that he will be called up again. I am not sure how to live without a time limit, but I am SO excited to find out what it is like. These deployments have taught me many things, one of them is appreciation. I appreciate being able to come home to my husband every night, I appreciate all the little things he does for me. I am so thankful for him, and when he is gone, I realize all the small things he does that I take for granted. He is my rock and best friend. I can't wait until our time limit is gone!

Monday, June 13, 2011

So Many Things...

I know, I know, I know... it has been way too long since I updated last. There are so many things running through my head that I can't seem to organize them in a fashion in which they will be understandable to a mind other than my own. But I will try my best. Here it goes....

The freshest thing on my mind is the passing of the sweet, loving, kind Lanae Peck.


I did not know her that well, but her impact on my life is one that I will never forget. I remember when Kenny and I first moved into this house, and into this ward. The ward was so big and overwhelming I wasn't sure if we would ever find our place. I was sure that we would be lost in a ward of 600 people and never fit into the cliques that were already formed. But Lanae (Sis. Peck) proved me wrong. I remember her sweet smile and kind words as she welcomed us into the ward. I remember seeing her at Fry's and her stopping to talk to us to see how things were going. Such a small act, but one I will never forget. I don't know why her passing has hit me so hard, maybe because she was so young, only 40, I can't imagine loosing my mom at such a young age. My heart aches for her young children who now have to go one without her. I will forever be grateful for her kindness and welcome spirit. She was truly a gem.

On a happier note, this event will be happening SOOOO soon!

That's right folks, by the end of this month my sweet husband will be home and we will have kicked this deployments butt AGAIN! Man I can't wait to have my hubby home and for my little family to be complete again. I am now counting down the days and my excitement is growing. Come on time, go faster. I'm ready for homecoming!

Another noteworthy event: my beautiful baby girl is now 3 months old! Can you believe it?! Man time flies by. I can't believe she is that big already. She is finally beginning to get some rolls and chubbin' out a bit, but still not as big as I was at this age. She is absolutely adorable and I love her more than anything. She is definitely the light of my life and my best friend and confidante while Kenny is gone.

(Don't you just love that face :) )